My 100 Pound Journey
In my lifetime I have lost weight, and gained it back, more times than I care to count.
In November 2013, I hit a major milestone and lost 100 pounds. It was 5 years in the making, with a lot of blood, sweat, and tears along the way. Approximately two weeks after reaching that goal I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Just like any major diagnosis, or life altering event, breast cancer can be stressful.
I was a stress eater, meaning that I almost always turned to food for comfort when the anxiety from stress kicked in. Within the first month of my diagnosis I gained 30 pounds. I lost that weight (again), but managed to gain it all back any time life happened. In the time since my diagnosis I have experienced some major life altering circumstances (i.e. stress). I walked away from a successful corporate career to start my own life coaching practice, and my family moved across the country from New York to Georgia. I've been struggling with those same 30 (now 40) pounds for the last 4 years.
My journey to becoming a life coach, and a certified BARE method weight loss coach, has taught me so much about myself, my weight, my desire for food, and my habit of turning to food for comfort.
I knew I was an emotional eater, but I didn't know how to stop. What I didn't realize is how unhealthy my relationship with food, and myself, really was.
Today I can say that I am a recovering emotional eater. I no longer turn to food for comfort. I no longer look to food for enjoyment. I don't get cravings anymore. My relationship with food has completely transformed. It is no longer my friend. It has become the fuel it was always intended to be.
Today I have a new relationship with myself, and with my body. I'm much kinder, and compassionate with myself. I take good care of me. I appreciate my body for all it does, every single day. I don't stress over the scale, or the size of my jeans. I am comfortable in my skin, but I still want to make a change.
In December 2017 I decided on an "impossible" goal. My goal is to lose 100 pounds in 2018. Calling it impossible takes away the fear of failure. I accept that I'm going to fail at this goal. I accept that I'm going to fail at a lot of things along the way. I know that failure is how we push past our comfort zone and move forward. Failure is the path to success.
For every single quarter of the year, I have a list of 25 actions at which I will fail. I've decided to document this journey through my weekly blog, with a monthly recap on the lessons learned. I hope you'll join me there.
What I have discovered along the way is that we must learn to appreciate who we are today before any permanent changes can be made. I'm doing this from a place of freedom, and a place of love.
If any of this resonates, and if you are struggling to find peace with your body, your weight, or yourself, I hope you will reach out. This is the work I’m doing for myself, and with my clients. This is how we change diet culture, and stand in our power. I would love to talk and see how coaching can help to set you free.
Follow my progress on this journey here and look for other related posts in my blog.