I left my corporate gig in wireless telecommunications 2 years ago, and never looked back.
Well, that’s not entirely true. I have reflected on my old corporate days quite a bit. I’ve had to do a lot of personal coaching around certain aspects of that life. There have been moments when I considered going back, only because that seemed a hell of a lot easier than starting something new. This entrepreneur stuff can be hard. It really does bring up all of my shit. It brings to the surface all of my doubts, all of my fears, and all of the insecurities that go with them. I always say it’s not for the faint of heart, and that couldn’t be truer now.
I have talked about the things I miss from my corporate life. I knew exactly what to do, every single day. There was structure. I had a list. I met my deadlines. As much as I dreaded the endless schedule of time sucking meetings, I sometimes find myself wishing I was in one. I long for that sense of certainty, and security, even though I know that both are an illusion.
The fact is, stepping out of my comfort zone is hard. And yet, I watch myself continue to do it every day. Every post that I share on social media, every blog I write, every person I reach out to, every coaching call I conduct is a step towards the unknown, the unfamiliar, to this new life I am creating. There are times it scares the shit out of me, and there are days I am ready to pull my hair out and throw in the towel. Life would be so much easier if I went back to the world I know. But, there is a burning inside of me that says keep going, keep trying, and keep moving forward. I continue to collect the data from my experiments. It can feel like a daunting task at times.
I’m reminded of a quote from Martha Beck’s Life Coach Training Program, “this is much worse than I expected, and that’s okay.” This is where I am.
With that said, I’m pushing past the fear (again) and moving towards the next unknown. I’m planning, and hosting, a 5-day retreat in Hawaii. If you would have told me 2 years ago that I would be planning something like this, I never would have believed you. It feels so big, and yet it feels so right.
Regardless, the uncertainty surrounding this new venture starts to creep in. The thoughts sound like “what if nobody signs up?”, “what if nobody comes?”, “what if I suck?”, and “do I even know what I’m doing?”. I know these are unfounded fears. They’re the songs of my self-doubt that can keep me stuck in my tracks, if I choose to let them.
Instead of giving in to that little voice, I’ll jeep going. I can tap into my old corporate days when I planned events, and managed projects. I can use that experience to knock this ball out of the park, just like I did so many times in my wireless days. I've been fighting it so hard, trying to run from my corporate life while secretly wanting aspects of it back, that I completely missed how those skills can support me now. Why not use them to help propel me forward?
That's what this retreat is all about....reconnecting to your strength, building confidence, facing fears, and shredding doubts. It's about rediscovering to the goddess within, the amazing woman inside who can look fear in the face and say "I got this!".
I have the power to change my tunes, and so do you. I hope you'll join us.
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