Wanting All The Treats

I recently stopped eating flour and sugar.

I did this as part of a new food protocol that I designed for myself, under the guidance of Brooke Castillo. I signed up for her program called Self Coaching Scholars, and it’s blowing my mind!

The idea is simple. Create a plan that includes a schedule for meals. Decide on meals that don’t include flour or sugar. That’s it.

I’m doing this for my overall health. Flour makes me feel like crap, and since our bodies are not designed to process this, or sugar, I decided to give it a whirl.

When I first thought about the idea of starting a protocol that I would commit to for 30 days I completely freaked out. No sugar?! I can’t have any treats? No cheats? How will I survive?

I immediately wanted a treat, because I was telling myself I couldn’t have one. I’m sure you know how that works.

Why do I want a treat in this moment?

My brain instantly flashes to chocolate pie. I want to go to the bakery and get some chocolate pie.

Why do I want chocolate pie?

French silk pie is something I ate regularly when Garret and I first started dating. I kept myself very restricted from food when I was single. The moment I was comfortable in a relationship I lost control in the form of a chocolate pie. Interesting.

I stay with the question and the thoughts that come in. I don’t try to push them away. I don’t stuff them down. I don’t shame myself. I let them come, and I meet them head on.

Why do I want the treats?

The treats keep me where I am.

They keep me safe.